always.

Saturday, December 29, 2007

jus a song writen by me

I am sitting here and
all alone crying.
No one around
to comfort me.

I wandered through the street.
I can only see memories
flashing back.

My tears started to drop.
The memories of the times
well spend
How do i go on without you.

By my side?
To love you to hold you
with all my heart

chorus
My heart was taken by you
broken by you
and now is in
pieces because of you.

I thought i could move on.
I guess I am wrong.
Through all i realised
What you took had
never be mine.

That i didnt need you
false love
I needed the truth
And finally i found it.

Chorus
It's hurt
You hurt me too many times.
You've put me through so much.
i'm tired of crying.

I decided to let go.
So i left you behind.
I really did.
I didnt even have to try.

hmmm. tis is jus a feelings of my thoughts nw.. i stil haven tink of e title yet

Friday, December 28, 2007

I noe i shld not left u alone in the chalet. n nw u r angry wif me.. i noe i haf alot of bad habits tat i need to be change..

Thursday, December 27, 2007

i look very haggard nw.. i have been crying for 3 days.. i was depressed

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

I really have to thanks yumi for givin me advices n comfort me.. i really haf to change my bad temper n pampered character.. i finally dear realli luv me. yumi say she can c he dote me n luv me even though he dunno how to say sweet words to coax me.. he onli noe how to correct me.. i haf tink carefully.. i will not tink too much n self inflict myself. cos i noe he will be hurt.. wat yumi say is rite. even i break up wif dear he will also be miserable too..

Tears kept dropping from my face.. i m mentally n physically tired, i am tired of guessing wat r u tinking.. to all my frens sorry if i nvr reply ur smss but i m realli too sad to reply anything.. give me some time ok i will be fine..

Monday, December 24, 2007

i nw at e chalet...but can u imagine tat i not in e gd mood..very depressed.. all cos of 1 person... i getin crazy anytime... how can i still be wif him when his heart is not even wif me.. kept lookin at hp n kept smoking.. i dun wan to spoilt anybody mood.. but i m realli very sad when u c e person tat u most luv his heart is not wif u.. i dun wish to deceive anyone n my most loved one deceive me.. mayb we shld break up.. mayb it is a better route for us.. one person in misery rather than 2 persons misery together.. but how m i gonna say it out

Friday, December 21, 2007

today i went to see chinese physcian wif my mum n aunt.. e dr say tat my liver is not gd.. aiya.. everything not gd.. sian... he said i very hot tempered.. n i kept havin headache n nvr slp well etc... Haiz... recently my uncle jus diagnosed wif stomach cancer.. so sad to hear tat.. cant believe his family jus acted as if nothing happen.. haiz

Dear have bought me a kenzo perfume.. haha.. he said i m e most troublesome gf tat he have.. everything he choose i dun like.. take a very long time to choose a present for me.. Hee.. he also bought alot of things for himself.. hmmm.. i want to buy sony ecrision W580I.. gotta tink carefully... dear sure dun allow me to buy de..

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Yeah.. i m very happy.. later i will be going shopping wif dear.. he will be buyin a present for me.. Hee.. i just bought a pink digital camera.. i m very excited.. these day clinic is full of patients.. very tired.. there are almost 600 plus patients in 1 day.. i haf a bad headache.. so i could not slp well.. cos recently quite a lot of complaint cases and difficult patients.. Sian.. i haf take my bonus.. very happy.. nvr expect to take so much of money.. tat y it is gd to work in government sector.. Haha.. got to prepare to go out.. cant wait for xmas

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Haha.. so fast my weekend is ending soon.. today dear cut my fringe for me... lolx.. 1st time he cut my fringe for me.. i tink i will go straighten n dye my hair again.. hmmm.. i thought of perm my hair.. shld i.. i dunno.. tired of my straight hair.. lolx... or mayb i shld dye my hair 1st.. left 7 more days it will be e day tat i met my bf.. hee.. we went thru happy n sad times together.. but i m glad to haf him as my bf.. nobody is perfect

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Today dear wake me up early in 8 am.. hee.. have breakfast together.. n after tat go to his house to slack... i also went to northpoint to buy present for patricia.. realli hope tat she will like it.. hee.. after e pay day i gotta buy presents for my angels.. i will be postphoning my rom since my best fren will be undergoing operation on february.. cos she is my best fren n sis so i also want her to attend my ROM.. dunno y these few days i kept fallin down.. sian.. havin a very bad headache..

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Today i am very happy cos dear fetch me home from work.. hee.. he never go work cos he is sick.. haiz.. tis morning i havin a leg cramps.. cant really walk well.. but i still manage to assist dr fam.. haha.. he is in a super gd mood.. lolx.. i nw havin a bad headache.. sian.. very fast me n dear will be together for almost a yr le

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Today i never go to work again.. i still having a bad mense.. haiz.. dear is also sick.. dear is worry abt me cos of prolong bleeding.. he scare tat i will faint.. i told him not to worry abt me.. i just onli lack of circulation in my body.. he is also very funny. he say can stop bleeding anot.. i told him r u crazy.. haha.. i m very happy. cos xmas is comin,, i already bought a wallet for dear n a cross stitch for him as our aniversary.. so fast we have been together for almost a yr.. we went thru good n bad times together. i am glad tat we r still together... Dear i really love u..

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

quite a long that i never update my blog.. today i never go to work due to my heavy mense..haiz
recently dear treat me very gd.. he noe tat i not feeling well n he fetch me to work..i m very happy.. today i nvr go work due to my mense. he also worried abt me. he will be changing job soon.. tis time round he need to go oversea trip for business if needed.. i wan to learn driving.. hee.. my hands n legs r numb.. no circulation..

Sunday, December 02, 2007

quite a long time that i never update my blog.. i just simplay have no mood to blog. i was depressed for past few week. now i m alright. thanks to all my frens for supporting.. busy in work.. but last week i was home late for almost mon to fri.. haha.. shopping time.. i bought alot of dresses.. hee..
me n my dear are also fine.. last wk i never slp well at all.. haiz.. but dear kept asking me to slp well.. haiz.. he begin to show more concern to me. i was glad. he bought me an antivirus software.. haha.. nw he have surrender all his credit cards to me.. i know he loved me. but i also tryin my best to forget n come out from e dark. Yesterday is an eyes care day.. argh.. alot of ppl queuing up for free screening..
as from onward, i told myself not to tink so much. have more trust in him