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Monday, November 28, 2005
y is he back again
y is he back again 2 disturb my life.. last friday i haf recieved a msg from my ex bf sister tat my ex is in jail again.. haiz.. hmmm.. y is he doing all those stupid things.. i already haf 4get him.. recently so many things happen & i still haven settled it & den he created another trouble 4 me.. he wanted me 2 visit him & write letter 2 him..
haiz.. y is he doing tis 2 create trouble 4 me.. school had jus reopen & i m very busy wif my work & studies.. den i cal his mum on last sat.. she thou tat i still wif him.. i told her tat i haf break up wif him 4 almost 2 yrs & i nvr c him 4 almost 2 yrs le.. den she wanted me 2 write a letter 2 him.. at first i thou of doing so cos i wan 2 clear all e misunderstanding tat he haf.. but in e end i nvr wrote.. den in sat noon i vent all my unhappiness on shopping.. i spent hundred of dollars in bugis.. i mus b mad.. den after tat i went 2 church.. den after e service his mum cal me again sayin tat he need a bible & wanted me 2 buy.. at tat moment i really cant control my emotion le & i hide inside e toilet 2 cry.. i was really very exhausted le.. i even thou of writing 2 him tat if he luk 4 me again i will choose 2 end my life & i mean it.. cos i really tired of hiding away from him.. in e end on sunday i meet his sister & told her tat e bible is not given by me & i told her tat tell ur brother tat tis is e last time i doing all these things.. & i dun owe anythings 2 whole family.. i already haf a new start& i haf 4gotten all e past le.. hmmm.. i went home quite late on sat.. cos of last fri i nvr slp & nvr eaten whole day on sat.. i was really tired & hungry.. haiz.. anyway i haf settled tis problem .. i still haf 2 settle of thinkin of whether wan 2 sign sponsorship wif hospital anot.. another busy wk 4 me again.. how i wish saturday can faster come so tat i can meet all my frens again.. gotta 2 go 4 my class le..
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
dont ask me y
i jus find tat human r really very stupid.. dunno y.. they always vexed 4 anything.. hmmm.. may b i haf changed le.. me last sat havin fever tat y nvr go out.. n i haf tink alot of things .. 4 me nw is a brand new me... watever hppen in e past i dun wan 2 noe & dun wish 2 noe.. cos there is no point turning back.. watever is past is past already.. no pt pinning on it.. action speak loud den words.. even everyday u say u will do but nvr take any action.. it is = nothing.. as 4 nw if any of my ex msg me or any guy tat i like b4 msg me i will choose 2 ignore it or jus treat them as frens.. if not 4ever i will stuck in tis pt.. as 4 nw.. i dun wish 2 go into realationship cos i still haven met e 1... i dun wish wish 2 noe anything nw cos i sick & tired of listenin problems.. cos watever i said is jus only repeating my words.. cos we mus learn how 2 let go of things ... so whoever haf problems jus dun update me cos i dun wish 2 noe & dun wan 2 noe... unless it is impt.. u may say i m selfish or wat.. i dun give it a damn.. as nw studies,family,work,church & jane tat all impt only.. other den tat is not impt... u get it..
Friday, November 11, 2005
sad...
2day is my last day in nuh.. missed all e staffs & patients at there.. we haf a lot of fun 2gether.. & i really missed my fren cos we haf shed tears n gone thru all e difficulty n we haf survived thru e tough training.. haiz.. 2 days ago i rec a news tat my teacher had jus passed away.. she died of sudden heart attack.. it is v upset.. haiz.. life is really very unpredictable.. we might not noe when we will died.. it jus can b any moment , any sec , any min.. haiz.. i told myself tat if 1 day if i diagnosed wif cancer i will choose not 2 b healed.. cos so wat u prolong e life in e end family suffered n urself suffer.. whole day laying on bed screamin of pain.. it is very painful.. so i will jus up e remaining day 2 do e things tat i nvr do b4..
Friday, November 04, 2005
life is really very short
2day 2 of my patients passed away.. 1 of them is very young.. his wife n children r crying.. they begged him not 2 leave them esp e children.. they cried n said daddy dun leave us u haf promised us tat u will bring us out.. it really heartbreaking.. it really break my heart.. e eldest sis even cried until she fainted.. e youngest is 3 yrs old.. at tat moment i really prayed 2 god tat pls dun take away tat patient.. cos his family still eed him n his children r still so young.. how i wish tat moment miracle will happen but it did not..e eldest sis n younger bro hugged each other n cried.. y is it tat life is very short.. n ppl get sick easily.. until nw i still can tink of e scene of e whole family cryin.. i really cried 4 tat patient n family.. b4 he passed away his family pressed call bell 2 cal 4 help n e nurse try 2 revive him n every1 cryin.. it affect every1 moods includin e staffs .. everybody said tat his children is still young.. u can say tat i emotional person or wat.. i am a human .. of cos i will cry 4 those who passed away even i dun even noe them..
life is really very short
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