hmmm.. wat shld i said abt my day. 2 day i was mixed wif all kinds of feelings.. happy,scared,sad n angry.. haiz.. 2day i was workin n i meet 3 different patients. got 1 cal up sayin tat she is lookin 4 gal tat she noe. excuse me auntie there r 3 gers in e clinic. got 1 young 1 which is me n another middle age is my doc n e old 1 is my colleague. so which gal is she lookin 4.den i asked her tat is it tat she lookin 4 doc den she said ya. wat e hell. jus tell me tat u r lookin 4 dr can le. make me so blur den another patient said tat she wan 2 c doc but is a male doc but nw my doc is female. aiyo. den another patient tat 1 more worse.. tat auntie she almost wan 2 attacked me. sob.. i haf a big fright. den suddenly she dragged my doc hand n i was stunned 4 a moment.haiz. den my colleague saw me being stunned. n she asked e patients 2 go out 4 a walk n she asked me 2 go buy my breakfast 2 eat.. arghh. haf a bad day in my work. was late when meetin christine. so guilty tat i haf let her wait 4 so long. i meet her in city hall den after tat we went bugis 4 our late lunch. chattin wif her abt my work n my ex n all e stuffs. haha. was quite happy as i started 2 4get e things tat happen in e mornin. den we go toilet 2 touch up n den we go take neo prints.. wah.. so happy sia.. simply luv e photos tat i take 2day. hee. waitin 4 christine 2 put it in frenster. haha. den after tat we went seiyu. wa lau. tat guy mus b long time c gers le. i told christine if he dare 2 luk again i will dig out his eyes. very fierce hor. haha. den after we go guan yin 2 pray n den we went sim lim square. haha. tok lot of rubbish on e way. haha. den after take bus 2 go marina square 4 dinner n walk walk. we haf our dinner at carl jr.. den we started 2 tok abt e past n my sec sch days n everything. den she told me a thing which i cant believe. n tat turn my day 2 upset n angry at e same time. haiz. i almost cried in front of her. christine said tat she regret tellin me n makin me so upset as i was really so fan wif so many things. de i told christine tat how can tat gal treat me lidat.. tellin all e tales 2 my frens n make me a bad person. sob.. den i finally cant take it n i pour out all e things tat she haf done. den i started 2 scold all e words out tat i not suppose 2 scold. i dun care.. den i told christine tat tat gal hated me so much. watever i haf she also wan includin bfs. can u imagine ur own fren chased ur bf round e whole place in front of u. of cos i will get jealous. den in e end she put up tat innocent face in front of other ppl makin tat i m an unreasonable gal. den i told my fren if she really liked him e most i give up la. i dun like 2 fight wif ppl things. n another 1 is i almost bcum another guy gf n again she cum in btw n spreadin e tales n cause an misunderstandin btw us. whenever i tink of it i was so upset.n everybody wan me 2 b wif him but in e end. n everybody noe tat i luv tat guy alot. n it took me a long time n courage 2 4get him.den i told christine abt my ex(1st ex). i told him e things tat i haf hide 4 so many yrs. i told him whenever i needed him e most he is always not by side n it is always another guy acc me. n when tat time i was havin a high fever of 41 degree n my whole mind was think abt him n he is also not by side. again it is another guy who acc me n take care of me. 4 so many yrs i nvr asked things from him cos i jus only wan him 2 study hard n work hard 4 our future n acc me n b wif me whenever i need him. but he cant. all he gives me r disappointment n heartbroken.den i told i no longer can luv him e same n i m e gal of i can 4give but i cannot 4get.. 4 so many yrs i dun haf bf is cos i dun trust guys anymore n cant 4get e pain tat he give me.. listenin 2 my mp3 on my way back home from cityhall. wanted 2 cry but i told myself tat i cannot cry. christine noe it. haiz. havin a headache nw. eyes still painful. haiz.. no mood 2 d anythings n tmr still gotta work.. i wished i can run away. i wish i haf lose my memory. cant wait 4 my exams 2 end as i need a break.. a long break.. i tink i will go jb (my granny house) 2 stay 4 few days.as i long time nvr acc my granny due 2 my work n studies.. at e same time i can sort out all my thoughts n also meet tat idiot zibing.. if not he will said tat ruixin break his heart again. aiyo.. everytime said tat i break his heart. he also break my heart lo cos he nvr cum spore 2 visit ruixin n wan me 2 go jb visit him. aiyo.. mayb i shld bring a lesb fren 2 scare him. haha. den bluff him tat is my bf.. hoho. wait later he die of fright n heart attack.. hmmm. ruixin time 2 study 4 exams.. mus put everything behind ur mind.. jia you n concentrate on studies nw.. cannot tink so much le if not ruixin will nervous breakdown n gone into her own world again.. cannot cannot.. i cannot sink into my own world as i will really not being myself n in e state of denial..

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