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Thursday, December 29, 2005
damn it
me yesterday was damn unlucky.. i was been syuck at aljunid... i was going 2 choa chu kang 2 meet jane.. n at e aljunid e train service stopped.. n i was so blur blur.. damn it.. i nvr been 2 aljunid n i dunno how 2 get out of tat place... n i cal my brother 4 help... drivin me crazy man.. i was so afraid tat until i almost haf asthma.. n i almost cried... den i blur blur follow ppl 2 take shuttle bus.. damm it.. den e officer said tat some1 had jumped off from kallang track.. duno who is tat fellow...
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
hmmm.. bad hangover.. headache
hmmm.. tis yr xmas i haf fun.. i even do my hair in saloon.. n it was also very pretty.. hee.. so happy.. hmm.. i dun really bought any presents due 2 i was busy wif my work n studies.. haiz.. i went mind cafe wif di.. hmmm.. den at 12 am i go paradiz centre alone cos dunno y suddenly i haf an emptyness in my heart.. haiz.. hmmm.. while i was walkin it bring back alot of memories abt me n him.. i almost cry.. den i realised tat back in my mind i haf choose 2 4get a lot of things.. haiz.. hmmm.. also dunno y i will tink of him.. all e memories kus suddenly cum back.. really cant take it.. sometime ppl asked y i dun haf a bf... they tink tat i haf a high standard.. hmmm.. actually no.. my standard is not high.. i jus only wan a bf who really luv me n my family wif all his heart.. hmmm.. 2 day i mus really let go of my past.. i dun care who will read it..
i noe him when i was sec 1 .. whenever we c each other we will sure fight.. also dunno y.. den slowly we fallen in luv wif each other.. hmmm.. he told me tat his dad had accident.. he wanted me 2 pose as his gf.. den i agreed.. den also dunno when we start 2 haf a relationship.. he was a guy who always skip school n run away from home.. haiz.. my family dun like him.. they objected it.. den when i was in sec 4.. everything haf changed when he was in ns.. he started 2 haf no time 4 me n lied 2 me.. haiz.. den he started 2 haf alot of gf behind my back.. frens had told me but i choose 2 believe him cos i nvr c it.. days after days i lose a lot of weight n haf depression.. wanted 2 killed myself but frens stopped me.. i wanted 2 break up wif him but i was 2 softhearted.. den when i was in o level.. he bcum drug dealer which relly broke my heart.. y lidat.. i was e last 1 2 noe... haiz.. when i take my o level he was jailed cos of coruption.. cant belive it.. den e truth really out.. all his gf cal me.. den a gal even asked him 2 cal me tat e 1 he loved is not me which is not e truth.. i haf a bad 18th bday.. from tat day onward i nvr smile.. i lose my smile n dun like 2 tok.. den after tat i get 2 noe a fren who really consoled me.. if without him n my frens supported i tink i really cant make it.. whenever i heard backstreet boys i'll never break ur heart.. i will sure cry.. until nw still e same.. den we nvr meet each other 4 almost 1 yr.. den after my repeat in o level he appeared suddenly in front of me.. also dunno y i will patch up wif him.. again.. he lied 2 me n cheated me.. again again he haf gf behind my back .. den in 2004 i decided 2 break up wif him.. at 1st i was very devasted but i still try my best 2 4 get abt him.. it took me 2 yrs 2 4get abt him.. but it also left a shadow in my heart,.. whenever guy woo me i will sure get freaked up fearin tat they will b like him who break my heart.. but i still so glad tat i haf frens n family n god wif me.. if not there will not b me.. hmmm.. 1 more wk will mark 2 yrs of my singlehood..
i noe him when i was sec 1 .. whenever we c each other we will sure fight.. also dunno y.. den slowly we fallen in luv wif each other.. hmmm.. he told me tat his dad had accident.. he wanted me 2 pose as his gf.. den i agreed.. den also dunno when we start 2 haf a relationship.. he was a guy who always skip school n run away from home.. haiz.. my family dun like him.. they objected it.. den when i was in sec 4.. everything haf changed when he was in ns.. he started 2 haf no time 4 me n lied 2 me.. haiz.. den he started 2 haf alot of gf behind my back.. frens had told me but i choose 2 believe him cos i nvr c it.. days after days i lose a lot of weight n haf depression.. wanted 2 killed myself but frens stopped me.. i wanted 2 break up wif him but i was 2 softhearted.. den when i was in o level.. he bcum drug dealer which relly broke my heart.. y lidat.. i was e last 1 2 noe... haiz.. when i take my o level he was jailed cos of coruption.. cant belive it.. den e truth really out.. all his gf cal me.. den a gal even asked him 2 cal me tat e 1 he loved is not me which is not e truth.. i haf a bad 18th bday.. from tat day onward i nvr smile.. i lose my smile n dun like 2 tok.. den after tat i get 2 noe a fren who really consoled me.. if without him n my frens supported i tink i really cant make it.. whenever i heard backstreet boys i'll never break ur heart.. i will sure cry.. until nw still e same.. den we nvr meet each other 4 almost 1 yr.. den after my repeat in o level he appeared suddenly in front of me.. also dunno y i will patch up wif him.. again.. he lied 2 me n cheated me.. again again he haf gf behind my back .. den in 2004 i decided 2 break up wif him.. at 1st i was very devasted but i still try my best 2 4 get abt him.. it took me 2 yrs 2 4get abt him.. but it also left a shadow in my heart,.. whenever guy woo me i will sure get freaked up fearin tat they will b like him who break my heart.. but i still so glad tat i haf frens n family n god wif me.. if not there will not b me.. hmmm.. 1 more wk will mark 2 yrs of my singlehood..
Thursday, December 22, 2005
hmmm.. y both brother n e sister is e same.. always break people heart
hmmm.. yesterday noon i was online an at sch.. den joseph chat wif me online.. i c tat he is very upset cos sandy break up wif him... sandy is my ex bf sis.. joseph circumstance is same as me... sandy left him cos she haf find a bf who is 33 yrs old n sandy only wan sex n money from tat man... hmmm.. she is jus only a 16 yrs gal.. sandy left joseph many times cos of another guy.. i thou gal mus love themselves more.. cant believe tat she is materialistic gal.. joseph even haf a thought of playin others.. den i told him not 2 do tat.. even thot yesterday i really busy wif my project but i still try my best 2 help him.. he was so scared tat he will went back 2 sandy n in e end his heart is broken again.. y did sandy n alvin r e same.. den joseph told me tat cos they r siblings.. it is true.. den i told joseph dun tink so much n god will let him meet his ms right.. den i also told tat i believe tat god is wif me.. thot i haf a bad bgr wif alvin n he really hurt me alot but i trust god tat he will let me meet my mr right.. it is true.. but he tink tat nobody loved him.. i told tat his family n frens r still loved n cared 4 him no matter wat happen.. last nite i prayed 4 him tat god will take away his fear n his unhappy memories.. let him b strong n b more firm in himself.. n he will still go on wif his own life n let him meet his ms right.. i was really upset 2 heard tat he is been dumped by sandy.. i really dun understand y sandy n her mum wan 2 lied me abt my ex been jailed... y.. i really dun understand.. y.. i hated ppl lied 2 me.. anyway i told myself 2 4get.. cos i noe in e end i am still a winner.. joseph also.. we will prove 2 them tat without them we r still happy wif our life.. joseph i noe u sure can do it de.. cos i can do it 2 4get abt him.. u also can do it 2 4get abt her.. dun tink so much.. god is really wif u.. no matter wat happen ... stay strong k.. n dun b soft hearted again.. god bless ..
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
2 nervous
hmmm.. me yesterday was 2 nervous 4 e practical test.. in e end i done a lot of mistakes.. sob... like i 4get 2 get a protective sheet & a io chart.. haiz.. dunno whether will fail anot... hee.. me nw at sch using computer.. jus nw was late was class.. cos i jus 2 tired & could not wake up on time.. den me n my fren take a cab from tampines 2 sch.. we took a mez cab but tat stupid driver is like playin a joke on us sayin tat he dunno how 2 go simei ite.. den my fren very hot tempered scolded him.. omg... haiz.. luckily teacher is still not at main lecture hall if not sure get detention.. hmmm.. 2day class was quite interesting.. mr tay tell us alot of story..
2 nervous
hmmm.. me yesterday was 2 nervous 4 e practical test.. in e end i done a lot of mistakes.. sob... like i 4get 2 get a protective sheet & a io chart.. haiz.. dunno whether will fail anot... hee.. me nw at sch using computer.. jus nw was late was class.. cos i jus 2 tired & could not wake up on time.. den me n my fren take a cab from tampines 2 sch.. we took a mez cab but tat stupid driver is like playin a joke on us sayin tat he dunno how 2 go simei ite.. den my fren very hot tempered scolded him.. omg... haiz.. luckily teacher is still not at main lecture hall if not sure get detention.. hmmm.. 2day class was quite
2 nervous
hmmm.. me yesterday was 2 nervous 4 e practical test.. in e end i done a lot of mistakes.. sob... like i 4get 2 get a protective sheet & a io chart.. haiz.. dunno whether will fail anot... hee.. me nw at sch using computer.. jus nw was late was class.. cos i jus 2 tired & could not wake up on time.. den me n my fren take a cab from tampines 2 sch.. we took a mez cab but tat stupid driver is like playin a joke on us sayin tat he dunno how 2 go simei ite.. den my fren very hot tempered scolded him.. omg... haiz.. luckily teacher is still not at main lecture hall if not sure get detention.. hmmm.. 2day class was quite
2 nervous
hmmm.. me yesterday was 2 nervous 4 e practical test.. in e end i done a lot of mistakes.. sob... like i 4get 2 get a protective sheet & a io chart.. haiz.. dunno whether will fail anot... hee.. me nw at sch using computer.. jus nw was late was class.. cos i jus 2 tired & could not wake up on time.. den me n my fren take a cab from tampines 2 sch.. we took a mez cab but tat stupid driver is like playin a joke on us sayin tat he dunno how 2 go simei ite.. den my fren very hot tempered scolded him.. omg... haiz.. luckily teacher is still not at main lecture hall if not sure get detention.. hmmm.. 2day class was
2 nervous
hmmm.. me yesterday was 2 nervous 4 e practical test.. in e end i done a lot of mistakes.. sob... like i 4get 2 get a protective sheet & a io chart.. haiz.. dunno whether will fail anot... hee.. me nw at sch using computer.. jus nw was late was class.. cos i jus 2 tired & could not wake up on time.. den me n my fren take a cab from tampines 2 sch.. we took a mez cab but tat stupid driver is like playin a joke on us sayin tat he dunno how 2 go simei ite.. den my fren very hot tempered scolded him.. omg... haiz.. luckily teacher is still not at main lecture hall if not sure get detention.. hmmm.. 2day class
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
nervous
later 2 pm i will b havin a practical test.. i m very nervous nw.. haiz.. later haf 2 do insertion of nasogastric tube.. hopefully i can make it & 4get everything.. haiz..
hmmm.. wat my mum say is very accurate.. ar... sob... i nw havin my menses.. sob... tis sat is xmas eve... by tat time it will b a big problem 4 me le.. hmmm.. mayb i will take e medication 2 stop it.. in order not 2 spoilt e fun on tat day.. i nw at sch using internet.. later after test i will b going 2 germaine house 2 do chocolates.. haha... 2day i was very tired & sleepy.. tmr class start at 8 am again.. tis mean tat i haf 2 wake up at 5.30 am again.. sian.. den tmr i still haf 2 work at night.. hmmm.. i tink tmr dr shld b dr yeo ba.. haha... hopefully tmr no difficult cases at work..
hmmm.. jus nw 1 of classmate asked me y am i so quiet at class.. hmmm den i told him tat i haf split personality.. at sch i was very quiet but at outside i am very noisy.. also dunno y.. all tis haf 2 depend on my mood.. tat y frens always say tat i am a weirdo & they say they dun understand wat m i thinking at times.. haha.. hmmm yesterday 1 of my guy fren sweet talk 2 me.. den i told him 1 thing is i dun like guys 2 SWEET TALK me.. i hated it... so dun ever try on me... u will sure get screwed up by me upside down.. den he still continue.. in e end i walked away cos i simply jus cant stand him..
hmmm.. wat my mum say is very accurate.. ar... sob... i nw havin my menses.. sob... tis sat is xmas eve... by tat time it will b a big problem 4 me le.. hmmm.. mayb i will take e medication 2 stop it.. in order not 2 spoilt e fun on tat day.. i nw at sch using internet.. later after test i will b going 2 germaine house 2 do chocolates.. haha... 2day i was very tired & sleepy.. tmr class start at 8 am again.. tis mean tat i haf 2 wake up at 5.30 am again.. sian.. den tmr i still haf 2 work at night.. hmmm.. i tink tmr dr shld b dr yeo ba.. haha... hopefully tmr no difficult cases at work..
hmmm.. jus nw 1 of classmate asked me y am i so quiet at class.. hmmm den i told him tat i haf split personality.. at sch i was very quiet but at outside i am very noisy.. also dunno y.. all tis haf 2 depend on my mood.. tat y frens always say tat i am a weirdo & they say they dun understand wat m i thinking at times.. haha.. hmmm yesterday 1 of my guy fren sweet talk 2 me.. den i told him 1 thing is i dun like guys 2 SWEET TALK me.. i hated it... so dun ever try on me... u will sure get screwed up by me upside down.. den he still continue.. in e end i walked away cos i simply jus cant stand him..
最熟悉的陌生人
最熟悉的陌生人
还记得吗 窗外那被月光染亮的海洋 你还记得吗 是爱让彼此把夜点亮为何后来我们 用沉默替代依赖 曾经朗朗星空 渐渐阴霾
心碎离开 转身回到最初荒凉里等待 为了寂寞 是否找个人填心中空白我们变成了世上 最熟悉的陌生人 今后各自曲折 各自悲哀
只怪我们爱得那么汹涌 爱得那么深于是梦醒了 搁浅了 沉默了 挥手了 却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了 激动的灵魂也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里 沉沦
我们变成了世上最熟悉的陌生人 今后各自曲折 各自悲哀
还记得吗 窗外那被月光染亮的海洋 你还记得吗 是爱让彼此把夜点亮为何后来我们 用沉默替代依赖 曾经朗朗星空 渐渐阴霾
心碎离开 转身回到最初荒凉里等待 为了寂寞 是否找个人填心中空白我们变成了世上 最熟悉的陌生人 今后各自曲折 各自悲哀
只怪我们爱得那么汹涌 爱得那么深于是梦醒了 搁浅了 沉默了 挥手了 却回不了神
如果当初在交会时能忍住了 激动的灵魂也许今夜我不会让自己在思念里 沉沦
我们变成了世上最熟悉的陌生人 今后各自曲折 各自悲哀
Monday, December 19, 2005
xmas is coming soon
hee.. xmas is coming soon le.. hee.. so happy.. hmmm 2day is monday.. i havin monday blue... ar... wake up at 5.30 am.. sian.. still feel like sleeping more.. cos sat n sun i haf been sleepin well esp on sat cos my parents r havin mahjong session at home.. n all e uncles r smoking which also might trigger my asthma.. haiz.. dun really slp well.. n my younger sis karen is doing a handicraft call dream catcher.. in e end i was e 1 who do 4 her.. she wan 2 do 4 her bf.. she haf been lookin at e instructions for 3 days yet she still dunno how 2 do.. haha.. den i laugh at her tat she shld ask me.. within 5 min i haf figure out how 2 do it.. haha.. den she asked me not 2 do so perfect cos of fearing tat her bf will noe tat i was e 1 who do it.. cos she haf told him tat i am gd in handicarft.. haha.. which is very true.. hmmm.. i even intend 2 open a handicraft shop when i retired.. haha..
hmmm.. tmr is my practical test.. a bit of nervous.. dunno y.. recently 2 busy wif studies n work.. really no time 2 buy xmas presents.. haha.. hmmm tis sat i will b celebratin xmas eve wif germ tat all even thot my house is havin buffet.. haha.. my sis thot tat tis yr i will b havin xmas party at home again.. but it is no .. cos tired of celebratin at home le.. haha..
hmmm my mum is so bad sia.. she asked me not 2 drink so many cold drinks fearin tat i will haf mense soon.. den i said touchwood cos xmas is comin.. dun wa 2 affect my moods..
anyway wish me gd luck 4 my test tmr
hmmm.. tmr is my practical test.. a bit of nervous.. dunno y.. recently 2 busy wif studies n work.. really no time 2 buy xmas presents.. haha.. hmmm tis sat i will b celebratin xmas eve wif germ tat all even thot my house is havin buffet.. haha.. my sis thot tat tis yr i will b havin xmas party at home again.. but it is no .. cos tired of celebratin at home le.. haha..
hmmm my mum is so bad sia.. she asked me not 2 drink so many cold drinks fearin tat i will haf mense soon.. den i said touchwood cos xmas is comin.. dun wa 2 affect my moods..
anyway wish me gd luck 4 my test tmr
Friday, December 16, 2005
ar.. i am stuck in e school
i am been stuck in school for 3 hrs.. jus finish my exam which i nvr take on 2 days ago.. in e end haf 2 wake up early 2 go 2 sch.. i am so SLEEPY.. class will only start at 12 pm.. sian.. _lll.. if at these i tink i will probably still wake up only.. hmmm.. yesterday my blood test result out le.. hee.. confirm no dengue fever.. thanks god if not i sure no need 2 celebrate xmas.. hee.. me so busy until no time 2 buy xmas present.. haha.. i nw still thinking wat am i going 2 do 4 tis 3 hrs.. sleep is impossible cos no bed 2 sleep.. mayb will jus online in my sch lo.. later still haf sponsorship talk after e lesson.. tmr is a sat.. so happy sia.. can go out again.. 1 more wk 2 go 4 xmas.. yipeee.. hee.. still haven a buy shoes 2 match my outfit.. haha.. shopping again.. haha.. 2 all my frens= take care & dun worry 4 me le cos i dun haf dengue fever le & i almost recovered le.. thanks 4 ur all concern.. i will sure miss ya all de especially my fren rachel ...
Thursday, December 15, 2005
fever fever
haiz.. me havin fever 4 almost a wk le.. on & off.. sian.. so many days nvr go sch le.. my head was v painful.. really cant take it man.. 2 days jus do a blood test.. nw still waiting 4 e result.. i haf not been eating well 4 tis whole wk.. haiz.. hopefully i can recover soon & hope tat it is not dengue fever also..
Thursday, December 08, 2005
sick
me haf been sick 4 these few days.. n i nvr go2 sch for 3 days.. having fever.. sian... dunno y tis few days i haf no mood.. i dun really eat well.. haiz.. exams coming soon.. so stressed up wif studies n projects.. nw i m studying psychological.. next wk will b havin class test.. haiz.. until nw i still not really feelin well.. anyway i was very excited cos tis sat i going 2 club mo mo.. haha... i mus really destress myself.. haha.. hopefully i can recover by tat time.. hee.. sohappy sat is coming soon.. n i can really rest well.. anyway gotta do my studies le..