always.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

for tis whole 3 wks i haf been feelin very stressed.. super stressed.. tryin my best 2 catch up e skills if not i cannot b graduate.. haiz.. super stressed n tired... lack of slp.. nvr slp well.. i wish i haf a break nw.. everyday i was so busy wid e work in e ward sometime i even went 4 my break late.. haiz.. tis few days i feelin very weak i tink mayb my HB is low again.. feelin so fatigue n feelin so cold on a hot weather., my circulation is very bad.. kept fallin asleep.. haiz.. i find tat human beings r hard 2 pleased especially singaporean.. haiz.. little things also wan 2 complain.. aniway i haf learnt not to tink n dun bother wat others say.. i really haf 2 thank my bf ben 4 fetchin me 2 work in early mornin n fetch me after work at night.. hee.. haf try my best 2 spend more time wif him.. n nw he is havin dinner wif his fren n tellin him abt e interview n e job tat he get.. hee... i hope tat tmr is a better day 4 me.. take care all my frens. life is realli very short .. cant believe tat xu wei lun passed away on sunday n she is jus only 28yrs old.. haven marry n haf kids n do e things tat she wan 2 do,.. isnt it a regret.. haiz.. haf e treasure life n e loved ones around u.. was pretty sad when i heard e news.. haiz..

Sunday, January 28, 2007

hmmm.. quite a long time nvr update my blog le.. tis few days lot of things had happened.. last thurs n fri i haf been quarrellin wif my bf.. haiz.. on thurs nite i even cried n haf a n asthma attack when tokin 2 him.. haiz.. den fri noon we quarrel again.. at tat moment i really feel like breakin up wif him as i really feel very hurt abt wat he say.. it is not tat i dun wan 2 stay wif him.. it is jus tat i haf my own reasons.. haiz.. again i cried until asthma attack.. tis time round was quite bad.. n it really affected my mood.. in e end he kept sayin sorry 2 me.. den i say no point sayin sorry when u haf hurt tat person feelings.. he fetched me 2 work but i dun even tok 2 him as i was still feelin very sad abt wat he say.. haiz.. i told him i m e gal tat can 4give but i will nvr 4get of wat he say.. i noe he is stressed in work but i m also stress in my studies too.. but tis does not mean tat u can vent anger on other ppl.. haf been feelin unwell 4 tis few days,.. lack of slp.. i already try my best 2 spend more time wif him no matter how busy or tired m i.. haiz.. watever is over is over.. n tis 2 days we r back to normal again..
tmr will b monday.. gotta start work again.. sorry 2 my frens tat i really ignore u all 4 past few days as i myself also haf my own problems n stressed..

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

haiz.. i jus quarrel wif my bf.. stressed in my attachment... lack of slp n was so busy. so many things 2 do.. haiz.. so i realli dun haf e mood 2 talk n think.. nw all i wan is 2 haf a break.. a long break.. haiz

Monday, January 22, 2007

monday blues

it is a monday blue again.. gotta work later.. haiz.. sian will b workin in noon shift.. haiz.. tmr will b e day tat i noe my bf for a mth.. hee.. n 5 more days will b a mth tat we haf been 2gether.. hee.. times really flies very fast.. so fast me n him already been 2gether for a mth le.. hee.. gtg prepare 4 my work le.. hee..

Sunday, January 21, 2007

hee.. wat haf i been doin 4 my weekend.. hmmm.. work,organ class n most impt accompany my bf.. hee.. yesterday my granny cum 2 spore.. yeah.. manage 2 catch a glance of her b4 goin 4 my organ class.. haha.. 2day e clinic is not quite busy.. den after meet my bf.. he do his work n i watch my ten brothers.. hee.. in e end both of us fall asleep.. haha.. den after i was quite angry as he ignored cos he is sleepin.. :( den in e end he wake up n i continue 2 b angry.. den after we surf net n haf dinner n we watch TV.. hee.. den after he send me back home.. n nw chattin wif him on phone.. bleah

Thursday, January 18, 2007

haiz.. was pretty tired.. thought of not goin work 2 day as i nvr slp well last nite due 2 e block nose.. haiz.. but i forced myself 2 wake up 2 go work.. i really haf 2 thank my bf 4 fetchin me 2 work in e mornin n fetch me home after my work in night.. if not i sure haf 2 wake up early n slp late.. haiz.. i realli lack of slp.. was very stressed as my lecturer is pushin us 4 e skills n i as a leader i haf 2 hold responsibility of many things.. haf 2 update e nurse manager who nvr cum work n wrote e rooster in e assignment book.. so many things 2 do.. haiz.. not only haf 2 take care of patients,showered sponged patient,i also need 2 send patients down 4 procedure n take their observation for every hourly.. sometime even haf 2 ans e callbells.. haiz.. dun even haf time 2 slack.. haiz.. nw gotta find a case study 2 do.. haiz.. last few days i realli cry as i realli cant take it.. haiz. super stressed in work n studies.. haiz..
2day is another busy day.. openin e wound dressin,give insulin injection n clear all e shits n urine which nobody will do.. haiz.. go 4 my break at 11.15am plus.. haiz.. legs r achin n i kept sneezin.. head very pain cos 2 much of work 2 do.. paper work n skills.. still haven update e nurse manager assignment bk.. haiz.. jus haf a debrief wif mdm tan.. haiz.. stressed.. gotta catch up wif my skills if not i haf 2 repeat.. haiz.. work hard ruixin.. sat is comin soon.. hee.. tmr i gotta go back 2 sch 4 SIM trainin..

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

stressful attachment

2day is my 2nd day of my attachment.. i was damm busy n very stressed.. haiz. mdm tan appointed me as a leader 4 e group in ward 52.. i was so stressed as i haf 2 handle so many things.. haf 2 grab e opportunites 4 my skills.. almost wanted 2 cry.. haiz.. jus like yesterday mdm tan told me tat there is a debrief in e noon.. my frens kept askin me 2 cal mdm tan n go out of e ward 2 ask e others.. i cannot do tis.. aniway mdm tan noe tat i haf difficulties as my group member r not cooperated wif me.. she told me tat is not my fault as i hf done my part n everythings. it is up 2 them 2 decide wat they wan. if they dun give me e bank acc copy by tmr they will get e pay late. when they get e pay late they cannot blame me as i also haf my own stuffs 2 do.. they r young adults n they dun need me 2 kept pushin n remindin them.. as mdm tan had already say tat they mus b more responsible n cooperated wif me n things will get done faster.. jus like tis noon 1 of them cal me n say tat she will b late. of cos i haf 2 inform mdm tan. n in e end she said tat she is late n i saw it as i was havin meetin wif mdm tan.. aniway,i cant b bother.. 2day e ward is lack of manpower.haf been sendin pt up n down 4 procedure.. still havin my mense... but i was not really feelin well.. feel very giddy.. haiz.. but i still managed 2 get my things done n attend 2 patients needs.. end work at around 3.10pm as usual i was e last one 2 left e ward.. as i gotta changed a diaper 4 a pt.. haiz.. halimah n i went 4 some deserts b4 we went home as we r super tired n i feelin super giddy.. e staff saw my lip was so pale.. haiz.. mus b HB low again.. tat y feel giddy ba.. kept yawnin.. tmr i m in noon shift.. hope tmr will b a better day..

Sunday, January 14, 2007

so sleepy.. such a nice weather 2 slp.. hee.. tmr my attachment will start. gonna miss my holidays.. haha.. havin a very bad mense.. wan 2 kill myself.. haha... so painful.. sob...

Saturday, January 13, 2007

cried

last nite i nvr slp well.. cryin.. feelin very sad.. haiz.. watever he said realli hurt me alot.. last nite my sis play e musics.. i cry in my slp.. headache, meet teng last nite 2 get e jewellery.. tryin my best 2 shed away my tear n b happy n pretend nothin happened.. he msg me at 3 am n told me tat he back home.. i cried again.. heartache.. headache.. later will b havin lunch wif dr seow tat all.. at e moment i dun wish 2 tink.. n try 2 b happy.. wat is love n wat i hatred. i dunno.. i wish 2 b alone 4 e time being,,

Friday, January 12, 2007

rainy friday

it haf been rainin 4 many days le.. haiz.. yesterday whole day i was not at home.. meet christine 4 lunch n den after went clementi 2 bank in cheque.. i lost my way in clementi. sob... den after tat went bukit merah library 2 borrow book n den meet christine again.. we went orchard.. it was rainin heavily n we were all wet.. haha.. went 2 eat japanese food.. sneezin.. hee.. den after my bf say tat wan 2 meet me.. den me n christine went buy ice cream.. so nice 2 eat.. yummy.. den my bf reached le.. n he fetched me n christine home.. haha.. middle of e nite i was havin fever. mus b due 2 e rain.. haiz.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

4 more days 2 my attachment

hee.. do anything much 4 2day.. practisin my organ n tidy my room..lol.. n nw gonna prepare 2 go work le.. later will b meetin dear dear.. last nite got abit of arguement regardin fetchin 2 my attachment.. my work start at 7am n his work start at 8.30am.. i dun wan him 2 wake up so early n later he will b very tired.. haiz.. shld c how 1st.. once attachment start i will b very busy surely no time 4 my dear,but i will try my best 2 spare more time 4 him.. hee.. gtg 4 my work.. jia you ruixin..
to: rachel
dun tink so much.. i noe u very tired.. left 9 more wks we will b graduate le.. let jia you 2gether.. dun let anything affect ur studies.. got any things u can always tell me den we can solve it out 2gether.. take care.. miss u gal
to: christine
if u happen 2 c my blog.. so sorry tat ever since i haf my bf i haf neglected u.. but dun worry.. i will try my best 2 spent time wif u 4 shoppin.. hee. take care.. miss u 2...

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

rainy tuesday

hee.. do nothin much 4 2day. early in e mornin my bf msg me n say tat he nvr smoke 2day.. hee.. den i reply him tat only 2day ar den how abt tmr n e other days.. haha.. he say tat all his cards r wif me. how 2 haf money 2 smoke.. haha.. den i say if he smoke i will spend away all his money in his bank.. lolz.. ya. last nite jus meet him.. he passed me his POSB n credit card.. n den we went yishun 2 eat roti pratas.. hee.. hmmm.. told him abt wat kelv told me yesterday. den he start his preachin n i was angry wif him as he nvr listen e whole story.. haiz... den i kept quiet.. he havin a bad flu.. haiz.. n 2day i jus only online. n thinkin of changin e pic of my blog again.. haha..

Monday, January 08, 2007

hmmm.. do anything much 4 2day. except chattin in msn n surf net n practisin my organ.. jus chatted wif keith n kelv.. keith said tat 2day is his 1st day uni reopen n he said tat he very busy tat y so long nvr contact le. haha.. den i told him tat no need 2 miss me cos me already got a bf who treat me very gd.. haha.. so happy 2 c kelv again.. he jus back from penang.. he will b goin 2 penang 4 work tmr.. haha.. was so shocked 2 hear tat he almost get conned in WLNY.. luckily nvr.. thanks god. i hated ppl use parents death 2 conned ppl 4 money.. haiz.. tat gal haf conned many ppl in WLNY . haiz.. she is pretty.. but kelv n i believe tat is not her real person.. haiz..
i was pretty upset.. cos my family still tink tat my bf is alvin whereas i dun even contact him anymore.. anyway i still dun wish 2 let my family noe 1st.. it is still not e right time.. my dear asked me not 2 quarrel wif them.. haiz.. aniway cant wait 4 my attachment.. but i will get 2 c my bf lesser.. haiz... so sad..
last nite jus msg wif rachel.n i jus read her blog. n noe tat she cried last nite.. haiz.. gal.. jus leave everything 2 fate.. as 4 nw jus concentrate on studies as we r goin 2 graduate.. i cant wait 2 go travellin wif u.. heehee.. we shld work hard n save more money 4 travellin.. take care n hope 2 meet u in CNY.. hee.. miss u..

Sunday, January 07, 2007

sunday

whole day i haf been at home.. nothin much except online n tok wif my bf on e phone.. hee.. nw he is joggin in order 2 quit smokin.. lol... 1 more wk 2 my attachment.. sian.. gonna miss my holiday..

Friday, January 05, 2007

a happy day

hee.. me yesterday mornin wake up by my mummy 2 go jb.. hee.. den in e noon meet sock wee 4 shoppin.. hee.. long time nvr c her le.. hee.. meet her at 2.15pm at woodlands control station 1st shop.. n she accompany me 2 KFC 4 my late lunch.. hee.. den we go cineleisure 2 find her devil.. but shop is closed n we went 2 heeren n den after we went back 2 cineleisure again.. n tat shop is opened.. so happy.. n i went 2 other shop 2 get a tube dress.. hee.. very nice... n me n sock wee buy a japanese ice cream 2 eat.. yummy.. we supposed 2 go bugis but in e end we went chinatown.. sock wee n i made a belt.. like tat belt alot.. hee... den after tat i also buy lingeries.. n den we haf our dinner.. was quite angry wif e service.. haiz.. dun tok abt it.. n den went toilet.. wah lau tat toilet so dirty.. n i vomited.. after tat sock wee go home n i meet my bf.. haha.. i onli reach home at 9pm plus... was happy 2 c sock wee.. hope 2 c her in new yr.. hee.. take care gal.. miss u.. haf alot of fun n laughter at yesterday

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

3 rd day of 2007

hee.. tis is a 3rd day of 2007.. n i long time nvr updated my blog le.. tis is e 1st entry of 2007.. haha.. wat haf i been doin 4 past few days.. last sat my bf msg me in e mornin 2 wake me up 4 work. but it is still early ma.. n den i nvr reply him.. den he cal me n i ans e cal.. he wake me up jus 2 haf breakfast wif him.. humph.. n i wake up unwillin n kept grumblihg.. haiz.. he can meet me in noon ma. mornin he need 2 go back 4 work.. hee.. den after breakfast i go 4 work n he go home changed 2 go work.. n den we will meet again after he finish work.. den later in e noon he msg me 2 go slp 1st cos he will b finish work quite late.. den i say i watchin tv nw.. haha.. den later he msg me tat he meet me at 5 pm.. den at 5 pm he still haven cal me.. den 5.15pm i cal him he say he at marsiin.. will b reachin in another 15 min.. den after 15 min i cal him he say he at gambah.. aiyo.. seem like he haf lost his way.. in e end he only reach my house at 6pm n it was rainin heavily.. den we went jalan kayu 2 haf dinner but he scared tat it will rain.. den i say we go there c got rain anot.. if haf den we go other place 2 eat.. haha.. when we reach jalan kayu it is not rainin. n we managed 2 find a parkin area.. haha.. i m e lucky star.. lol.. tat wat he always say.. lol.. den after tat we haf roti prata n nasi brayani.. he ordered 2 many roti prata n e nasi brayani is so much.. how 2 finish.. aiyo.. after dinner we go back 2 his house.. n we surf net in youtube.. n listen 2 my mp3.. haha.. den we wrestling again.. lol.. den after at 11pm we watch soccer.. after soccer we go slp.. n we also chatted until we fall asleep.. n he even sing n snore in his slp.. n i havin a block nose.. cant slp well.. we wake up at 10am plus.. we surf net n after tat we go haf our breakfast.. den after he send me back home.. n he also go home .. n den he cal me n say meet later .. den he go slp n i also slp 2.. when i wake up den i cal him n he say meet at 6pm.. n we went bishan 2 buy his slipper n we bought kfc 2 eat.. den after tat we went vivo city.. haha.. lost our way.. lol/ n he started his teachin of e expressway.. aiyo.. cant stand him.. n we reach vivo city at 8 pm plus.. n we go walk walk.. n he bought 2 shirts n he say tat he wan 2 give me a last present in 2006.. n we walk many round n cant find e thing tat i like.. in e end he bought a puma jacket 4 me.. so nice.. hee.. den after tat we go home watch e vcds tat we bought.. hee.. after tat we slp.. n we wake up at 10 plus n we surf net n watch tv,, den in e noon we watch mission impossible.. hee.. den after he send me back home n i order mac 2 eat n i slp n he go back home 2 wash his clothes n his car.. haha.. when i wake up i cal him... den after tat i watch my tv n he do his things.. n in tues i was at home whole day.. nothin much 2 do.. 2 all frens happy new yr n take care