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Sunday, April 16, 2006
my own thoughts
tmr is my last day of my attachment.. so happy.. hmmm.. recently, a lot of things haf happen.. fren cheated me.. i really dun understand y mus she do tis to me... anyway, i told myself 2 4get it n not to trust her again.. i hated ppl 2 lied 2 me.. me still not feelin well n i still haf a slight sore throat.. haiz.. last fri my teacher wan me n zawani 2 be models (GUINEA PIG) for e diaetes test which is done by students.. they were takin exam.. i was abit of not happy cos i still not feelin well n yet haf 2 bcum guinea pigs again.. e students were quite rough.. can u imagine my blood pressure were taken so many times on my both hands n legs.. somemore e student nvr released e pressure when they finished.. n it was so painful n my hands were numbs n e professor noe tat i am very upset n he told off e students.. cant u c she is in pain.. n 1 of them even hit my bone n i jumped up.. haix ... den after tat i get e news tat my fav patient was admitted again due 2 heart problem.. last nite jus went 2 visit her n her daughter told us tat she left only few days.. so upset.. recently i had think a lot.. started to tink back of e past.. den i realise tat i haf 4get lot of things... n i asked myself y is it tt sometime guys r so selfish n only tink of themselves n always hurt gals without thinkin.. they only noe noe how 2 run away n den hurt other gals without knowin.. haix.. jus so happy tat holiday is comin n i cn meet sock wee again.. really miss her alot n miss e times tat we used to hang out..
Sunday, April 09, 2006
sick
me was sick for past 1 wk.. ever since my fren haf inserted a tube from my nose 2 my stomach.. my throat was infected.. last nite i jus seen a doc.. he say my throat is very swollen.. i haf 2 eat higher range of antibiotics in order 2 get well soon.. after takin e medicine i was very drowsy.. feel like sleepin
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
sick
me 2day haf a bad sore throat n flu but i still went 2 work.. tired.. jus nw sharon jus inserted a ng tube for me.. she inserted from my nose 2 my stomach,, nw my throat is even more painful but i tolerate it n forced myself 2 swallow n dun luk at it.. very tired .. after tis i will be sleepin cos i v drowsy nw.. jus haizum also wan 2 insert 4 me but i dun wan cos i not feelin well.. when take out e tube is full of my mucous due 2 my flu.. it is very uncomfortable.. it is like something choke in ur throat..
Sunday, April 02, 2006
2 more weeks 2 holiday
yesterday i did not go church due 2 i not feelin well.. my whole body r aching.. 4 tis 2 wks my haf been aching.. it was so painful until i wan 2 cried n cant even walk properly.. mdm tan is back 2 nuh again.. last thurs jus saw her. e moment i saw her my heart nearly stop n my face also turn green.. she was e 1 who terrorised us at e last posting.. nw when we start work if we hear any footstep from outside our heart will drop.. haiz.. i only wan my tis posting end faster.. i was really 2 tired.. tired of facin all e ppl from outside.. at time i really feel ike givin up myself .. but i told myself 2 be brave 2 handle all e obstacles.. i jus cut my hair.. it is realli damm short.. i vent all my stress o my hair.. haha.. i jus 2 tired.. tis few wks i haf been havin asthma.. there were so many time tat i almost collasped at e church.. haix.. tis few days i really feelin very giddy.. realli no strength.. haix.. i haf been havin weird dreams 4 tis few nites.. dun realli slp well.. as 4 my attachment i really scared tat i cant finish my skills.. n everyday i was so busy doing all care 4 my patients.. i jus read newspaper n find tat 1 of my patient had jus passed away.. haix.. life is realli very short.. last monday my stomach was almost kicked by my patient.. den e doc decided 2 restraint her.. she pinch my hand n spit on my face n hair.. if not i will sure admitted 2 hospital if she realli kick my stomach.. tmr is another busy day 4 me.. hope tat i can survive n haf more strength