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Thursday, December 28, 2006

rainy day

hee..it haf been rainin 4 whole day le. last nite i was not feelin well. suddenly haf a diarrhea n fever.. haiz.. but still gotta work.. taken my med n go work.. haha.. last nite there were not much patients.. but e patients r abit of fussy n demandin.. haiz.. den after tat msg my bf askin him whether he still meetin me anot.. den he replied me tat he is sleepin so he nvr meet me den i told him tat i m sick.. den he cal me.. after work he cal me ask me whether wan 2 go his house anot..den i go back home take things n he cum n fetch me.. nvr slp well mayb not used 2 it ba.. haha.. den tis mornin den he send me back home n he go 4 his work.. haha.. he say i so gd can go home slp again n he haf 2 work.. haha.. but i find tat he always like 2 say me de.. humph.. startin his preachin again.. haha.. me nw havin a flu.. hee.. jus changed my blogskin 2 goong.. hee.. feelin very sleepy n lousy nw.. no appetite 2 eat.. haiz..

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

it haf been rainin 4 a day.. yesterday is a xmas.. wat i do.. stay at home online n after tat at nite went vivo city wif family.. haf dinner at no signboard resturant.. den after went walk walk in vivo city.. hee.. 2day zq wan 2 meet me but i dun wan cos i really very stressed.. dun wish 2 hurt him.. haiz.. also dunno wat 2 do.. i m stuck.. really stuck..

Sunday, December 24, 2006

hee.. wat did i do 4 yesterday.. go 4 my organ class n is e day tat i say good bye 2 my singlehood.. lolz.. dear drive me 2 PS 4 my class n after class go starhub centre 2 find him.. n den after tat we went bishan walk walk n haf our dinner at there n den he drive me 2 my cousin place.. hee.. n i only reach home at 12 am. n 2day is a xmas eve.. wake up only at 12pm plus.. hee.. whole day online at msn.. hee.. den in e evenin meet dear n we haf dinner n den he need 2 go back home 2 do his work.. n i stay at home watchin my goong.. haha.. haf been rainin 4 e whole day le.. merry xmas in advance 2 all my frens.. muacksss

Saturday, December 23, 2006

hmmm.. me yesterday was very suay.. wake up at 11.30am wan 2 send sms 2 my fren but sim card spoilt.. haiz... so sad.. den go ps starhub centre 2 change.. sobbb.. i cant live without my hp.. haha.. when my sim card is activated my sim card is flooded wif almost 30 sms.. aiyo.. my mum was quite irritated by hp ringin.. haha.. aiyo.. den after went walk walk wif mummy.. den go 4 my work.. haha.. christina in maxis say tat i luk like a barbie gal.. haha.. aiyo.. last thurs tat joseph nothin 2 do cal my hp 2 test my riddles.. haha.. wat fishes n birds n all those funny things,.. aiyooo.. den after den sms me.. haha.. he ar mus b bored at e army camp ba.. haha... last wed was a multli task day 4 me...msn chat wif 5 ppl n tok on hp wif 1st round wif a fren n den second round n a third round n replyin sms at e same time.. aiyo,.. i also dunno wat m i tokin.. haha.. 2 confused le.. lolz...gtg prepare 4 my class le ..

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

tis few days it haf been rainin.. tis type of weather is makin me feel like cryin.. haf been depressed 4 so many days.. in daze n haf been drinkin jus 2 4get all e sorrow. haf been listenin 退后 sing by jay chau.. even thot my frens r tryin their best 2 make me happy n acc me .. but i still feel sad. i still act normal n happy in front of them but deep inside my heart i m cryin. nw heartache,headache,eye pain n flu n every where is painful.. in e state of denial.. haiz.. last sat jus went sheila shop 2 tok wif him.. n at nite online chattin wif him.. thinkin of e past n e happiness n fun tat we used 2 haf.. but nw everything haf changed le.. still rmb 2 yrs b4 xmas eve me ,rachel went sheila house 4 steamboat n i even dye hair 4 HIM.. dun wish 2 mention name.. n we eat n enjoy.. n still rmb we went orchard shoppin n xnas party at my home.. things haf changed .. we cant go back 2 e past.. i will nvr 4get all those memories.. my 21th bday n many.. n nw everybody haf grow up n changed includin me.. in his heart i m always a devil who always go clubbin n shoppin n unreasonable gal.. thou sometime i m harsh wif my words but actually my heart is very soft de.. haiz.. very soon 2006 is endin le.. n nw i m sick.. feel very giddy.. mus b hb low again.. haiz.. no mood 2 do anything.. tis yr xmas will b a lonely 1.. will b stayin at home cryin.. haiz..

Saturday, December 16, 2006

last nite i jus went 2 my pri sch gatherin.. i dun feel like goin cos i not really in a gd mood.. haiz.. feelin sad n cried.. but i nvr regret goin.. cos it haf been 10 yrs tat i nvr c them le.. thanks ah joe 4 tokin rubbish wid me on thurs nite jus make me happy n 4get e sadness.. haiz.. heartache.. until nw i still cryin.. cant help it.. i truly blessed 2 haf so many frens cared n pampered me.. really.. last nite take lot of pic wif them..i was even half drunk.. when i went 2 toilet i can feel my head is spinnin n cant really walk straight,... haiz... 2 upset le.. i can only drink 2 4get all 4 sadness.. even thot i m sick.. cant b bother.. if will die mean will die.. haha.. edwin drive us home..thanks edwin.. reach home at 1am plus.. headache sia.. tis mornin almost cant wake up.. headache.. n noon i took panadol.. nw feelin better.. jus chatted wif sheila.. hhee.. thanks sheila 4 lentin me his ears.. was truly happy.. haha.. try my best 2 4get everything...

Friday, December 15, 2006

hmm.. wake up at 12pm 2day.. still feelin pretty tired.. haiz.. last nite nvr slp well, cry 4 e whole nite le.. nw havin headache.. sian.. still feelin sad.. later i will b goin 2 my pri sch gatherin.. haiz.. still dunno wat 2 wear sia.. LOL.. a tube dress or wat.. dunno lei.. still thinkin.. hee.. nw still waitin 4 my tube dress 2 b ready n once e stock is in i mus buy.. cos i simply luv tat dress 2 much le.. feelin very weak n it seem like i floatin in e air.. haiz..

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

hee.. me 2day i wake up at 11.30am..hmmm.. so shiok sia.. nw havin holiday le.. so happy.. hmmm.. me last nite went orchard wif christine 4 dinner n shoppin..aiyo.. we haf been eatin n eatin non stop.. aiyooo.. saw some1 familiar when i haf dinner.. dr chua n a staff nurse.. haha.. tat doc saw me he was so shocked.. lolz.. but i cant b bother..hmmm.. thanks christine 4 accompany me if not i will b at home cryin.. haiz.. 2 stress out le.. christine say tat i very xin fu n fortunte 2 haf so many ppl dote n pamper me especially guys.. haiz.. but wat 2 do but i dun like them ma..hmmm.. god is playin a joke on me last nite.. pls dun let me make a choice.. i dun like.. really dun like.. still havin sore throat.. haf b coughin.. haiz.. still feelin depressed.. duno y.. life is really very short.. mus treasure e loved ones around u.. hee. hopefully i can find a bf on xmas 2 celebrate.. lol..

Monday, December 11, 2006

hmmm.. jus finish helpin mummy mop e floor.. hmmm.. jus upload some e pic n put in e slide on my blog.. cos i simply nothin 2 do.. no mood 2 study 2.. haiz.. jus chat wif rachel on msn.. tokin abt e past.. tok abt weijie..how i laugh wei jie when he is botak in sec sch days n how i teased rachel n weijie.. haha.. simply miss those days.. miss tat group of gorilla.. especially e big gorilla.. haha.. elmo.. lol.. tat is e nick 4 him.. haha.. so fast all of them r in army le.. n me n rachel gonna graduate in next yr.. times realli flies very fast.. xmas is comin.. gonna think of wat 2 buy.. hee.. tmr is my last paper.. hehehehehe.. yipee.. can enjoy my holiday le..

jus wake up from my nap.. super sian.. tmr is my last paper.. abit of coughin.. i tink mus b last nite cried 2 much le.. cried until my airway is choked.. haiz.. nw outside is rainin.. make me feel very sleepy.. lolz... hmmm.. after tmr wat shld i do 4 my holiday.. hmmm.. gotta eat more 2 push up my HB... if not my hands kept havin e numbness n lack of circulation.. haiz.. n gotta rush on my organ homework..

Sunday, December 10, 2006

not in a gd mood 2day.. feelin moody.. wan 2 cry but i told myself not 2.. told him tat i like him le.. but it seem like he dun believe.. haiz.. heart really can feel e aching.. haiz.. tmr is my exam.. i wan 2 4get.. concentrate on my exam.. haiz.. i dun wish 2 tink anymore le..

Saturday, December 09, 2006

haiz. me nw havin a runnin nose n abit of sore throat.. haiz.. mus b lack of slp.. last nite only slp at 2am plus n i wake up at 7.30am 4 work.. was late.. aiyo.. den after meet christine 4 lunch at wisma.. told her lot of things tat not supposed 2 tell her cos i noe she will sure killed me. haiz.. but she promised me not 2 scold me.. lol.. den after tat we went kinomuya 2 c magazine.. christine was lookin at beauty magazines n i look at e music books at another side.. ai yo.. me was so short n e cupboard was so high.. haf a hard time takin e book as my hand is holdin something.. den a guy (stranger) cum out 2 me n ask whether i need help anot. haha.. paiseh.. he helped me 2 take e book out n i said thank u 2 him.. lol.. den after tat i put back e book... as usual i cant reach.. so paiseh.. n tat guy luk at me.. at last i managed 2 put back.. thot of still lookin at other books.. but i paiseh n i went 2 luk 4 christine n she go wif me again 2 c e books.. hee.. den tat guy luk at me.. feel like findin a hole 2 hide myself.. den christine helped me 2 hold.. hee.. as usual i still cant reach 4 e books.. sobbb.. sad.. den in e end i give up as tat guy kept lukin at me.. i very paiseh... lol.. den we went walk walk n haf a tea at coffee bean.. haha.. den after go cwp 4 walk walk n haf dinner.. tis noon jus chat wif wen jie.. i told him tat whenever i c him sure nothin gd will happen n told him tat mayb tat time i c him 2 handsome liao tat y ended up in A&E wif ulcer in eye.. lol.. jus jokin wif him.. hee... jus finish doin my mask.. lost in my thoughts.. haiz.. dunno wat 2 do.. haiz.. dun wish 2 tink anymore le..

Thursday, December 07, 2006

me luv tis dress alot.. sobbb.. but no more stock le.. so sad.. sobbb..

me jus wake up.. feelin very weak.. haiz.. havin a very very bad of tat mth.. arghhh.. feel so sleepy 4 almost 2 days le.. no strength 2 do anything.. mayb later will go c doc 2 get med 2 stop it n do a blood test 2 check my full blood count.. if not i tink i will ended up in A&E soon 4 blood tranfusion.. look like my HB will b dropped again.. stomach very pain.. no appetite 2 eat.. only feel like sleepin.. haiz..mood swings,no mood 2 tok.. exam comin.. stressed.. whenever exam cum i sure haf tis type of problem de.. haiz.. hopefully by mon i haf e strength 2 do my exam.. headache.. i tink nw my face mus b luk like a ghost ba.. terrible.. arghhh..

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

me jus wake up... hmmm.. last nite i jus rejected dean cos i dun like him n he i not e one 4 me.. he is 2 yrs younger den me n i find tat he shld concentrate more on studies... n he is still young.. he sure can find a better gal.. he asked y cant i give him a chance.. how 2 give him chance n i dun even like him.. no point cos in e end he will get more hurt.. wat e point.. n nw i only wan 2 focus on my exams.. last nite i jus chatted wif sheila(shawn) in msn.. hee.. sheila said tat if any1 bully me he will bite them.. haha.. sheila is my security guard.. lol.. his gf is no 1 n i m his no 2.. haha.. he said he will kill whoever bully me.. n i bite those whose make me sad.. haha.. noe sheila 4 many yrs le.. he noe a lot of things abt me n he nvr tell others.. n i also noe alot of his things.. hee.. n whenever i m sad sheila will make me laugh n find who is e culprit who make me sad .. hehee.. haiz.. havin a bad mense.. aiyo..

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Monday, December 04, 2006

me 2day nvr go school cos havin headache n tat time of e month.. haiz.. sian.. look like my HB will dropped again de.. haiz.. wake up at 11 am n my colleague cal me..n i bcum e culprit again .. aiyo.. ever since i started e topic of mahjong version of a thing( cannot say it out).. n nw she started 2 create more n i bcum e mastermind.. lol.. wat 2 do.. still feelin abit of sleepy.. gotta help mummy 2 clear e storeroom le.. take care rachel.. drink more water k..

Sunday, December 03, 2006

jus sms wif rachel.. find out tat she will break up wif him on 12 dec .. haiz.. n it is e day tat i finish my paper.. n i haf 2 make a decision on tat day.. cos i promised them tat i will give them an ans on tat day.. stuck.. i hated 2 make a choice.. cos no matter wat i choose i will hurt e others.. haiz.. tis noon jus went jurong west wif my cousin 2 view an organ.. e condition of organ is gd n i asked her 2 buy cos was quite worth it.. 1 more wk will b my exam.. n it will b e last time goin back 2 sch.. miss all e day i haf wif my frens.. after next wk also dunno when will i c them again.. cos we r going 2 different hospitals.. haiz.. next yr after a wk attachment we will haf a prom night.. hee.. the theme 4 e prom nite is red carpet.. hmmm.. gonna start 2 think wat shld i wear on tat day.. hee.. jus only a wk after my bday.. hee.. dunno who will b my clinical lecturer.. n after exam i will b havin 5 wks holiday... yeah... will meet up wif rachel 4 shoppin,kbox,movie n lot more.. oh ya i also cannot neglected my christine .. if not she will say i biased.. hee.. mdm angel(my class advisor) wan me 2 settle my HB b4 my clinical postin as she afraid tat i will faint.. jus tok abt it 2 my doc.. she asked me 2 top up folic acid wif my iron supplement.. haiz.. mummy cook lot of liver soup 2 push up my HB.. n she always remind me 2 bring my sweater 2 sch n ask me not 2 drink so much cold drink.. last nite me n my sista bought a pendant 4 her as her bday present.. hee. n another wk more will b my daddy bday.. thinkin of wat 2 buy 4 my daddy.. hee.. n xmas is comin soon.. everybody askin me which guy i will celebrate wif .. haha.. but 2 bad tis yr i celebrate wid christine.. haha..

all these photos r taken at last nite.. some r taken at home n onli 1 in kbox

2day onli reach home at 12.15 am.. went kbox wif christine n her frens.. in e noon haf a runnin nose n headache.. mayb lack of slp ba.. haiz.. i meet christine at 4.45pm at woodlands control station.. n i saw my pri sch fren in somerset.. we went 2 cineleisure 2 find christine fren .. 2day is my mummy bday.. hee.. me n sista managed 2 meet each other in cineleisure n we bought a pendant 4 mummy.. hee.. thot of not meetin christine.. i noe tat if i dun meet her she will definetly kill me.. haiz.. haf dinner at hong kong cafe.. taken med.. n i cal sheila.. hee.. he is workin.. n we went 2 kbox.. e person at there give us a smokin room.. luckily christine asked them 2 changed if not i will sure haf an asthma attack at there.. haiz.. cant stand e smoke.. n christine fren also dun dare 2 smoke in front of me.. haiz.. feelin very lousy n when i went toilet i vomitted.. haiz.. dunno y.. mayb due 2 room stuffy ba.. airway get choked.. haiz. vomitted again in e kbox room.. feel very sad 2day mayb 2day i m 2 emotional ba n plus all e song tat i sing is so sad.. somemore got stranger around wan 2 crazy wif christine also hard.. super sian as tat guy is simply 2 borin..haiz... until nw still feelin nausea.. haiz.. take a cab home.. tmr still gotta work.. n tmr still haf 2 go out wif my cousin 2 c an organ.. tired.. havin a headache n flu nw.. really not feelin well.. haiz.. nobody at home.. sian.. feel worried 4 rachel.. mayb i shld cal her up tmr if possible 2 chat wif her.. hope tat nothin will happen 2 her if not i will b guilty 4 not showin more care n concern 2 her as she is one of my best fren n i always treated her as my sister.. feel upset 4 her.. when she told me e things i almost cried n feel worried 4 her.. haiz

Saturday, December 02, 2006

feelin very lousy.. kept sneezin.. haiz.. headache n runnin nose.. but i still gotta go kbox wif christine... later she will bring medicine 4 me 2 eat.. haiz.. feelin very sleepy nw.. wan 2 slp le.. but cannot cos gotta go out.. haiz.. tmr still gotta work.. super sian..

Friday, December 01, 2006

hee.. cant slp cos i m hungry n plus mummy is still at my room doin things 4 my cupboard.. hee.. stomach is makin noise.. haiz.. wat shld i eat.. hee.. finish work at 9.30 pm n i reach home at 9.45pm.. hee.. tmr is a sat le.. haf 2 wake up at 7.30am 4 work n after work i gotta go 4 my class.. sleepy n hungry at e same time.. haiz.. eyes closin soon le.. jus nw managed 2 practise my organ.. hee.. jia you ruixin as tmr will b a busy day 4 u..take care all my frens.. shld meet u all out after my exam... hee

arghh.. nvr slp well last nite. havin lot of nightmares.. dream of vampires n ghosts .. haiz.. nvr go sch 2day.. sick sick.. haiz... off my hp 2 day as i dun wish 2 ans any cal from any1.. cos tired n wish 2 run away 4 a moment.. haiz