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Saturday, November 17, 2007

i dunno y i cried again..i realy tired of crying.. i m depressed.. my emotional is unstable.. i feel like cutting myself again.. huifang say tat i m depressed n shld c dr... i realli feel like breakin up wif him.. i lost my control n tell him haf he ever consider my feelings, i dunno which of ir words r true or false.. i m tired of thinkin , i m tired of cryin, i m tired of depress n make my fren around me worry abt me.. everyone can c tat i not in my ownself.. sonner or later i will sure ended up in IMH.. 5 yrs ago i was depressed but thanks to all my frens around me supporting me if not i dunno wat will happen to me.. y is it love is so painful.. even though everyday i force myself to be happy in front of everybody but deep inside my heart i feel e hurt n pain torturing me.. so many time my tears wan to to drop while i workin. but i told myself to be brave n dun cry.. but nw i realli cant take it anymore... i feel like go for drinking again.. make myself drunk n at least i no need to tink for e moment.. but i noe when i wake up i will feel e misery in my heart again.. shld i continue tis relationship or shld i give up.. i realli love him alot. i tink i turning insane soon.. nobody at home.. i feelin more lonely n sad.. i need a break.. i wish i can dun tink anymore,, i tired of tinkin, i wan to cal my fren but i dun wan them to worry abt me.. let me die..