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Saturday, January 15, 2005
tired day

2day haf to wake up early jus 2 go 2 my sis sch 2 c her teacher.. her teacher haf consificated her necklace.. n i haf 2 wait 4 her teacher.. so sian n tired sia.. after me n sock wee haf lunch together.. haiz.. hope tat my sis wont give me any problems le.. me yesterday jus cut my hair cos really stressed by work n music.. finally i haf finish half of my homework cos haf been staying up so many nites 2 complete it.. nw i raelly look like a zombie due 2 lack of sleep.. who ask me nvr do hw in e end haf 2 slp around 3 am plus.. den next day still haf 2 work.. look like 2 day haf 2 burn midnight oil again.. haiz.. tmr morning still haf 2 work.. after work still got class n after tat celebrate marc birthday.. i realised tat 1 of my ear already cant hear le.. mus b due 2 my sinus.. haiz.. look like i really haf 2 do e laser operation le.. my family still dunno tat my ear cant listen le.. dun want 2 tell them cos dun wan 2 make them worry.. 1 day if i m deaf i rather die cos tis mean my dream of my music life is shattered.. sob... hope tat will recover ba.. i realised tat tis days i haf been thinking of my past.. nightmares.. always wake up in e middle nite n i was so scared n cry.. it is cos of my ex.. already 3 yrs le.. me can 4give him but i cant 4get wat he done.. he betray me.. n haf so many gf behind my back.. i choose 2 kept quiet even thot i noe e truth.. m i foolish.. ya.. tis is wat i tink.. e day he break up wif me.. i really lose control n really turn mad.. i choose 2 escape reality by going out every nites.. i choose not 2 drop tears.. after when i n my close fren went 2 paragon.. we went 2 e roottop n i really burst into tears.. at tat time,i really wish i m die.. but i didnt.. i told my fren m i tat bad.. is it tat e 3 words is very important n does tis mean tat i haf 2 give him everything ma.. no i dont tink so.. my fren say tat he is e 1 tat dont deserve my love... 4 tat half yr i changed alot.. i didnt smile 4 mth.. when i choose 2 be wif another guy n 4get him n past.. he came back 2 me n say he is sorry.. he regret wat he done.. even thot i still loved him tat time.. in e end i choose 2 give up tat guy n b wif him again.. m i foolish.. haiz.. e few mth of our relationship, i been thinking of wat he done.. i become another person.. i been crying like hell n pulling my hair.. thinking of him betray me again.. in e end i choose 2 break.. even nw he is still waiting 4 me.. all i can say is i sorry n i will nvr give him a chance again.. cos i dun wish 2 go back 2 e past.. each time i saw shawn.. it will make me tink of my ex n wat he done.. i hope i can 4get e past...